The start of October didn’t seem friendly, though a usual sense of familiarity prevailed....
MUSINGS
Today I took an afternoon stroll through the street that circled my block. Walking through, I realised the sun was still harsh, the light invaded the shadows of rustling leaves that adored the idea of life every time the wind blew. The air carried a mixed scent of wood and flowers, tinged with the sweet fragrance of mithae being made in a small shop around the corner. People were busy - as they always are - in search of something far away, which is a continuous struggle that will never end. The start of October didn’t seem friendly, though a usual sense of familiarity prevailed.
I tried to focus on my weekend tasks, from where to start. Anya wanted me to spare my weekend for her, to teach her few lessons from her chemistry book. Her term exams are near and she isn’t confident enough. ‘Ah, what a waste of time’ my mind sparkled. ‘Why strive for something you didn’t know the outcome of?’
Someone laughed inside me. Life works on a similar formula. Endless questions and useless thoughts. The sun shone right into my eyes and I covered them reflexively.
What a fine afternoon. The calmness had me walking as there wasn’t any distraction this time. I looked at the road, the turn was still out of sight. Jets of hot air came right through my left side, and the freshly made tandoori roti whetted my appetite. I couldn’t even remember what I had for breakfast this morning.
I had to take my grandmother for her follow-up visit to the doctor. Her pain in joints has settled to some extent, and her diabetes is well under control. She was so happy today with the progress that she wanted to tell this to the doctor herself. What an amazing and pure smile I saw today on her face.
Finally came the end of a road and my calm stroll. I felt relieved for this ‘me’ time. Normal days can be like these, which is another thing to learn. Situations are there still, don’t know whether I should write about them or not. Well ... it doesn’t matter.
I didn’t like my job, not because of the environment or the people but because of myself. I wanted to discuss it with someone but... never mind, people are always so busy around me it would be demeaning for me to ask them for their time. I have to have better learning opportunities and competitive environment that I have always wanted. Patience often requires more patience, someone needed to tell me that. I often think what kind of light everyone is waiting for when we’re so used to walking through the dark tunnels?
I have to change the setting of my room, a little. I don’t have enough space to actualize more imaginary changes into the real ones.
Weekend, a sigh of relief. It will be in two days. But that’s okay. I’ll sleep better tonight, and I’ll try this recipe tomorrow, of parmesan chicken I bookmarked last month in my list. Can’t really recall why I haven’t tried it already.
Hmmm... I feel sleepy now. Oh, I lost track of time while writing and today is almost over. It’s 11:35 pm. Couldn’t do much today, but there’s always tomorrow. I can feel tiredness seeping into my body. Sleep will help. Oh, there’s this application I had to send, I almost forgot. What should I do? First thing tomorrow? We’ll see.
It was nice meeting you.
